The Bad Witch and the Monkey-Bird

Holy shit! I never told you about the monkey-bird.

I bought the house I live in in 2004. There is almost an acre of land behind the useful part of my yard which I’ve been gradually clearing since last March; with the onset of fall weather and the completion of the chicken-coop, I’ve had more luck then over summer. In 04, the whole yard was a jungle of maidenhair ferns, crepe-myrtles, and pampas grass which we reclaimed have over the last eight years.

But when we first moved in, there was something out there.

I was convinced that there was a monkey in my backyard. I mean, I knew there wasn’t, but still.

There was an eerie sound that came from the yard: “ogh, ogh, ogh, oooooooooh!” And the ape-like howling and whooping was unlike anything my Chicagoian ears were used to hearing. I mean, the summers I spent in North Alabama were mostly full of bug, frog and air conditioner sounds with the occasional “moo.”[1] The sounds were also accompanied by loud crashes in the trees, which would shimmy under the weight of something bounding from branch to branch.

Bigger than a squirrel.

Flying opossum?

Maybe, I teased, it was a monkey.

And, of course, freaked myself out.

It didn’t help that The Bad Husband had moved to Nebraska for work, leaving me and three babies in this big-ol’ house all alone.

After six months or longer, I ran to the back-porch every time I heard it. I only ever saw the crashing and heard the oogha-whooping.

Until one day.

I had been outside clearing what-ever-it-was-I-was-clearing-that-week so I could put in an herb garden.

Though the creek-bed had run dry the month before, due to the new construction about a mile away, I had seen lots of animals looking for the water that used to be there. I was never surprised to pull up a handful of weeds and find that I had a frog as well.

On this day, I sat on my garden bench to rest my back which had grown weary of bending and pulling. I looked out over the area I had cleared and imagined the herbs I would grow there. Exhausted, I “zoned out” a bit and visualized until I could smell tarragon, coriander, basil. I heard the flapping of feathers and felt a slight breeze on my face. But this wasn’t unusual for when I was in the zone, so I didn’t startle.

Until, that is, I opened my eyes.

Not six feet away was my monkey-bird; at long-last I got to see it out of the trees. Staring at me was a curious Great Blue Heron. It buzzed a guttural sort-of glugging sound and took a spindly-legged step forward. I’m not sure I breathed. Just remembering the boldness of that bird makes my head swim.

Then, it opened its huge wings, squatted down and leapt into the air, crashing in the trees as it flew off.

Though I have seen them while on vacation (it seems whenever I get close to water, I have some sort of encounter with a Heron), I haven’t seen a Great Blue Heron in my yard for a few years now. Until today.

Whenever I go out to my chicken run, I get the feeling that there is a bigger bird looking at me from “the back-backyard.” My fear was that it was the Redtail-Hawk that hangs out around my house from time to time. (It has even perched on the bannister of the small balcony of my temple-room for hours at a time—just watching me.) But today, my monkey-bird came back. S/he grabbed a piece of fence and stared, cocking her head from side to side, and flew off—going south.

The wind said, “Beware. She will transform you.”

I have a very open relationship with the spirit-world and have no problem communicating with and recognizing guardian spirits and elementals. I’ve even run up against a few other things that I understood, even if I didn’t have a proper name for them. But whenever a specific deity contacts me, I feel pretty dense—like they have to drop a ton of bricks on me to get my attention. As a youngon’, Mhór-Ríoghain grabbed me by the wrist and said, “c’mon.” Even though I wasn’t particularly Celtic (only in that I identify strongly with my maternal-grandfather’s Scot origin).

Then, when my life went to Hel four years ago, she moved off. Maybe to make room for others. I spun my wheels looking for a mentor, looking for a deity-archetype to whom I could look for guidance, looking for a new path upon which to set my feet.

In the spring, I thought it was Hestia. And, it was—only not. I mean, she had a thing or three to teach me, but it was not a long-term relationship; I knew it from the start. I also knew that Megaera was only around to do a job and then move along. Someone suggested Ceredwin was being friendly last June.

Now I have a year of a red-tail hawk staring at me, a heron re-clanging around, a thousand-pound boar rooting at me (this is a story from the fair where I met the timberwolves), remembrances of my unborn twin, a-lost-and-found amber necklace, a strong attraction to Seiðr, and a new “chair.”

 

Freyja and Herons. Sander J. Nystrøm, 1893.

 

Freyja and Hildisvíni

 

Freyja in the High Seat

 

Freyja and Brísingamen

Freyja Morphing into a Falcon/Hawk

Freyja as Sorceress

 

Freyja.

Obvs.

To quote The Bad Son: “Derp.”

To quote The Bad Baby: “-.-”

Because of her associations with death, Freyja is bridge or of connection between us and our ancestors; and as queen of the Valkyries, Freyja has a fierce side as well as a protective side, just like an alpha wolf: Frejya is a Goddess of raw power.

Now if I could just get some cats to pull a chariot . . .

Almost a year ago, I wrote an Open Letter to Polyphanes, my fellow-blogger and adored friend. I had told him about the instructions my agathos gave me: “Learn to make mead.” Learning to make mead sent me on a quest that was not unlike unraveling my sweater and then trying to figure out what I was gonna wear. Embracing my ancestry was familiar—something I had always done fairly easy. Embracing ancestral “doings” was a little more sticky (on account o’all the honey involved). There are issues of mead-making, of course—and then there are issues of shell-shaking, cave-dwelling, hexe-crafting, pow-wowing, high-seating, fruit-canning, pipe-smoking, spirit-speaking, bagpiping, chicken-raising, moonshining, butter-churning, and cotton-picking. What tradition answers that call? (I’ll be able to tell you my answer before Yule.)

Embracing my ancestors’ deities is going to be even more of a problem. I’ve always embraced Anglo-Heathen ethics—but neither Ásatrú nor Vanatru speak to me as clearly as I want my religion to. So I invented a term for myself about a year ago; this I feel in my bonzes.[2] Like a lot of traditions, it considers pantheonic “gods” and “goddesses” to be more akin to “deified ancestors” and spiritual intercessors than creator-gods, so I can be friends with Freyja without extra Odinic baggage.

Depending on which way the birds fly, I’ll fill you in on what I can without breaking any Harpocratic rules.

All in good time, they say—just like the materialization of an ancient chronicle.

I’ll be in touch . . .

B, Q, 93,

TBW


[1] Climate control with a chance of meatballs.

[2] A longer definition will soon follow.

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8 comments on “The Bad Witch and the Monkey-Bird

  1. Um … well, crap, I thought you knew that. When did you figure this out? I think it would be delightfully funny if *my* guides were telling me who *yours* were and then you find out as an afterthought.

    • A) This is a kinda-sorta new relationship as far as I know. (<2 years. Short when taken in the grand 27 year scheme of things.)
      B) Because I get so much psy-white-noise, I have had to learn to tune a lot out. (I imagine you understand this very well.) So, sometimes . . . I don't listen. Ergo the anvil. Usually I listen to the red flag messages, but I'm so used to red flag meaning "Warning Will Robinson!" that the last few "nice" messages have gone under the radar. LOL.
      C) If you start getting my emails, lemme know.

      • Yes, it sounds familiar, as does second-guessing myself, and so on. So, no, it wasn’t that I found out before you did. It was kinda like a Mafia thing, getting whispered in my ear, “She’s a friend of ours. Well, from another district, y’know. The Freyja mob.”

      • Well, you know–I was with the Tattaglia’s and then they made me an offer I couldn’t refuse.

  2. And I love the pictures!

  3. I’ve been seeing big herons on my forest walks, but I haven’t heard them make a noise yet. So interesting. I had no idea they had an association with Freya.

  4. Oh, I wish you had been with me: I was walking down a sidewalk in a suburb of Tampa, across the street from where I lived. Coming toward me on the sidewalk, taking the same Sunday afternoon stroll as I, was a family of Herons. Sadly I am not sure which kind. But there, apparently and judging by size, were Daddy, Mommy, and teen Heron, taking up the width of the sidewalk and quite obviously at home doing so. They were walking straight down the sidewalk, not around it or off it, but filling it from side to side and showing no signs of any inclination to give way to such an insignificant reature as my 5’2″ self. I know the Daddy was taller than I am; Mom was a toss up and the teenager was at least shoulder height to me. I know my place: I stepped aside and they majestically stepped past me without any hesitation and without seeminng to take any notice of me either. I felt rather snubbed, to be honest, and not a little like Alice. This was in 2003 or 2004. I was not aware of their association with Freya either, or I’d have been looking her up long before this. Of course they snubbed me, so maybe I wn’t meant to at the time. I truly wish you had been there, however. I think they would not have snubbed you. 🙂

  5. […] For now, I leave you with herons! The Bad Witch wrote about the association of Freya and herons earlier this month. […]

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